Why am I working there?

Hm... So many things going on around me these days... I can see them all as being signs, but I can't seem to make meaning of any of them!

I recently realised the reason for why I am still working at where I am now. I am definitely not working there because of the Pay, nor because of the interest... because I have no interest in tennis!

What I realised was... around this time last year when I first started working there, I needed refuge... I needed something to help try and take my mind off things... I haven't been using work as a way of earning money, nor have I really improved my knowledge of things at work... hence the reason why I'm probably always being told off at work...

But then work has given me the opportunity to also meet my boss who's a total arrogant bitch but he has the ability to make me think and make me realise and learn things where I cannot else where...

Maybe these are all signs... I don't know... I'll figure out some day...