wahoo's emptiness

Gone... GONE! NO MORE! :)

2009-01-13T11:19:00.003+11:00

So I finally picked up enough courage to throw "stuff" away. I guess in a way, it felt like releasing myself. There was no point in keeping things anyways.

Also... no one reads this blog anymore anyways :P But I'll just type some rubbish here as a way of venting and if anyone happens to stumble across it then they'll know how i feel.

I learned something recently that I had no idea of previously. Had I known earlier, I would've stepped in and taken action, even though it may not have been any of my business. My reason? Because I care about you too much.

2008-11-11T12:59:00.002+11:00

When you left me I decided to wait... I gave up a lot of things, even meeting new friends (girls) just so it won't make you feel uncomfortable and to prove I was single hearted and only devoted to you. I spent the last 2 years of uni just studying and concentrating so that I wouldn't have to think too much about anything else in the hope that we may reunite because I knew you still had feelings for me.

Now... oh how I regret... Life is boring as hell these days and there seems to be no vision of the future... None of my "friends" seems to introduce me to any other friends and the rest are just busy with their own partners... I guess I can't blame you for anything just because you're so popular and you've got a million friends so it's so easy for you just to forget about me. But not for me I guess, it's so much harder. All I can do now, is regret and try whatever I can do move on... which doesn't seem to be working at all.

2008-10-16T16:15:00.002+11:00

You don't think, you don't care, you don't listen and you're stubborn. You're extremely selfish and arrogant as well.

I Still Do...

2008-01-14T03:47:00.001+11:00

I went through a period of hating you, ignoring you and basically wanting to forget about you.

But one then I realised is, I truly do love you. I love you so much it's not something that I can explain. It's something I do from day to day life.

I know there are things about me that turn you off and there are many things about me that you may not like. But I know one thing for sure, and that is no matter what, I haven't stopped loving you since the first time I said I love you, to you.

I miss you so much. I love you Jess.

心淡

2007-07-23T22:12:00.000+10:00

想不起　怎麼會病到不分好歹
連受苦都甜美
我每日捱著　不睬不理
但卻捱不死　又去癡纏你
難道終此一生
都要這麼　不可爭一口氣

很謙卑　只不過是我太過愛你
連自尊都忘記
跌到極麻木　只好相信
又再爬得起　就會有轉機
若我不懂憎你　如何離別你
亦怕不會飛

由這一分鐘開始計起　春風秋雨間
恨我對你以半年時間　慢慢的心淡
付清　賬單
平靜的對你熱度退減
一天一點傷心過　這一百數十晚
大概也夠我　送我來回地獄又折返人間
春天分手　秋天會習慣
苦沖開了便淡

2007-07-08T02:29:00.000+10:00

I guess it's over.

What is the point of so much work, so much faith and so much hope... only to dig myself deeper and deeper into a hole for which I should have crawled out of long ago...

It's as if none of the promises, none of the things said, none of the things that happened were ever true... were ever real... would ever last...

God why do you test me? Why do you lead me in this direction? What have I gotten myself into?

The biggest pain is knowing you've tried so hard, so very hard... yet you come no where close to something you thought would be at the end of the road... those times trying to keep your head up during the day, trying to keep your eyes closed without thinking during the night, thinking that only if you improve yourself, live your own life so that you won't be affected... but they keep coming for you... they just keep coming back and you can't avoid it... it's made you who you are today... it's shaped your life to what it is... How can you ever let go? How?

I guess none of what I have done before ever counted for anything, I have lost that time of my life... The only way is to leave... to disappear... for they have found "their love of their life"...

I'm becomming an Emo... Suicide?

2007-05-07T00:26:00.000+10:00

Much sadness... I guess today's society naturally creates emos... I don't want to be one but I feel myself turning into one.

It's easy to say get over it, it doesn't mater, but once you're the victim of certain things you can't really just tell yourself.

Can't really blame others for not caring either everyone's concerned with their own lives and doings. When does anyone have time for anyone else?

Suicide... they say it's not the answer, but then why isn't it the answer? People say things alright turn out better and yes I agree they do. But then they just turn bad again and they always repeat.

*sigh*...

Good Bye

Why am I working there?

2006-12-30T01:18:00.000+11:00

Hm... So many things going on around me these days... I can see them all as being signs, but I can't seem to make meaning of any of them!

I recently realised the reason for why I am still working at where I am now. I am definitely not working there because of the Pay, nor because of the interest... because I have no interest in tennis!

What I realised was... around this time last year when I first started working there, I needed refuge... I needed something to help try and take my mind off things... I haven't been using work as a way of earning money, nor have I really improved my knowledge of things at work... hence the reason why I'm probably always being told off at work...

But then work has given me the opportunity to also meet my boss who's a total arrogant bitch but he has the ability to make me think and make me realise and learn things where I cannot else where...

Maybe these are all signs... I don't know... I'll figure out some day...

Bored and Lonely

2006-12-19T01:03:00.000+11:00

Bored and lonely... So what can I do? Find hobbies... yes... do them... yes... but nothing compares to the company of people...

Not like I can cry about it, but then what's the point if I do anyways?

*sigh*...

Who really cares and who's really there for ME?... If only there was...

One Year...

2006-12-12T16:30:00.000+11:00

It's been one year... I am so tired... So...So... So tired...

Depression...

2006-12-12T00:17:00.000+11:00

Yeah... Feeling insignificant all the time... when will I ever feel important? Guess I'm just not, what's the point of being here then?

**dies**

What do I deserve??

2006-12-10T23:19:00.000+11:00

So my boss tells me off everytime I work:
- I'm losing money for him, I'm losing customers for him
- I don't have an initiative
- He can't understand me
- I have no interests
- I'm f***ing stupid
- I shouldn't be paid because I'm going to work to learn
- I'm being taught things I can't be taught at Uni
- I'm suppose to be a 4th Yr Aerospace Engineer

I guess it's helped to make me think about myself. I use to hate him, these days I don't, if it gets to the point where it pisses me off, I just switch off and disregard what he says. But otherwise, most of the stuff I learn to reflect on...

He does have issues though... I'm not THAT bad! haha... I guess I'm not trying as hard to work as hard because I've pretty much been demoralised at work. Stress usually makes me perform worse and become forgetful as well.

But if I can handle him, I can handle anyone...

Let it rip! Bring it on!

2006-12-06T23:45:00.000+11:00

I read up on something and learned about it recently... wow!.... =_="...

Anger is not simply just an emotion, but it is in fact a type of natural self defence mechanism... For example, in the wild, if you piss off or attack an animal to make it feel threatened, they usually use anger to defend themselves. Humans aren't that much different...

So it is possible to see that people who have bad tempers or whom are often angry at things grew up needing to constantly defend themselves. Most likely from parents.

Obviously it is not good to have a bad temper and chuck a rage whenever something pisses you off, but it's interested to know and learn of where it comes from...

So I guess a relation can be made between ppl with a temper and/or who get angry easily to people who feel insecure?

Hm... feeling a little on the weak side now... *sigh*

So the summer break is here...

2006-12-03T22:57:00.000+11:00

Long time no posting... nearly totally forgot about this haha!

Anyways... not like many people if any read it anymore anyways...

So what's been happening recently? Nothing :)... well not completely nothing...

Well happy birthday to kei in advanced! You're getting old my friend :) But then again you don't even read my blog so it doesn't really matter...

AAAnyways... bleh~

raah!!

2006-11-18T01:23:00.000+11:00

RAAAH!!!

Exams... 3 down... 1 to go... so far so good.. although my marks are going to be shitty compared to last semester ><" Fully OWNED last semester! :D gosh... ><"

Well... holidays comming up, so the following are things i want to get done...

IT - Industrial Training!!! Or else I don't graduate!! ><"
$$$!! There'll be spending... So I want to EARN something dammit... hopefully I can do some IT that involves earning :)
hm.. clean my room, pack stuff, organise stuff... bleh...

oh yeah... funny... my birthday is always on during holidays... but the last time I remember actually doing something about it was back in year 7... ah well...

until next time...

Fairness...

2006-10-15T01:07:00.000+10:00

Nothing seems to be fair in this world :( But then I guess it depends on how you see it.

There are many people out there so much better off than I am, yet there are probably even more people worse off than I am...

Why are things so unfair? :(

2006-10-01T19:06:00.000+10:00

Was always taught that boys shouldn't cry, and I've been living by this principle ever since. But people rarely ever realise that it's not what physical that hurts the most, but it's what emotional hurts the most deepest.

I cannot cry from any physical pain, but when an emotional barrage of feelings and thoughts rain down, the gates of my eyes are no match for this...

2006-09-26T21:13:00.000+10:00

Heard this song over the radio when I was driving back home after dropping off Jess today. Haven't heard it in such a long time... haii

All 4-One - I Swear~

I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky
and I swear like the shadow that's by your side

I see the questions in your eyes
I know what's weighing on your mind
You can be sure I know my part
Cause I stand beside you through the years
You'll only cry those happy tears
And though I make mistakes
I'll never break your heart

Chorus
And I swear by the moon
And the stars in the sky I'll be there
I swear like the shadow that's by your side I'll be there
For better or worse
Till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear

I'll give you every thing I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang some memories on the wall
And when (and when) just the two of us are there
You won't have to ask if I still care
Cause as the time turns the page
My love won't age at all

And I swear (I swear) by the moon
And the stars in the sky I'll be there (I'll be there)
I swear (and I swear) like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there (I'll be there)

For better or worse
Till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear

And I swear (I swear) by the moon
And the stars in the sky I'll be there (I'll be there)
I swear (and I swear) like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there (I'll be there)

For better or worse (better or worse)
Till death do us part I'll love you
With every single beat of my heart
I swear I swear I swear

Helpless

2006-09-18T00:21:00.000+10:00

I feel so helpless sometimes...

Maybe it's my inability to express myself properly...

When you love someone, when you see them in pain, you feel it yourself, when you see they're happy, you're feel happy as wel, when you see they're sad, you feel sad as well...

For people in love, feelings are never one sided, they're always mutual... that's what makes lovers lovers....

='( **larm**

Sad news...

2006-09-08T18:14:00.000+10:00

2 in 1 week... Australia icons are going down like flies ><"

It's sad news... Steve Irwin the crocodile hunter, and Peter Brock the King of the Hill...

RIP... no more la...

I'm a Runner...

2006-08-18T22:13:00.000+10:00

Hm... recently I've been discovering how much of a pussy cat I am sometimes... no not pussy cat dolls or anything related... but more like I'm always running away from things I'm scared of? Whether it be study, friends, events, situations and so on... I'm always the one telling others not to avoid problems bla bla, but I'm always the one doing it... what a hypocrite... *sigh*...

Anyhow... My boss scolded me 2 weeks ago saying I've got problems... maybe I do? He says I'm too proud... I've never been really proud of myself, but then again, maybe I always am and I just don't know it, what a tool... what a fool...

Guess I better do something about myself...

I don't like thursdays...

2006-08-10T14:20:00.000+10:00

Well... not every thursday... just thursdays during the Uni semester... Why? Because there's like a 2-3hr break where everyone seems to be busy with something and I'm always alone... I can't find no friends neither... it's cold... it's lonely... it's boring...

I guess I can always find something to study or read, but then the mood is just not there. So I'm sitting in a computing lab atm just typing this up, my thoughts.

I realise that when I'm alone, it's an opporunity for me to think and reflect on myself. I guess I can always do that but my head hurts. I don't want to think.

Anyways, on thursdays I start at 9 am and finish at 6pm. There's a 2-3 hr break in between depending, sometimes it's probably even a 4hr break... I'm bored... I hate waiting all this time and then having to try and survive through the last 3 hr lecture, the lecturer puts you to sleep! ><" and then I gotta drive home or take public transport home. I actually prefer to drive, because I feel like I'm more in control of my time, but then that's not always so, fatigue usually takes hold, so public transport is probably better. But then a lot of the times I have to wait for the train/bus and that really sux...

Anyways... yay I just managed to use up about 4 minutes...

woah woah!

2006-08-07T19:20:00.000+10:00

Woah... news has been interesting recently!
Other than extremely cold weather happening around *sneezes* ARGH! I hope I didn't catch a cold... I just woke up from sleeping on my chair ><" One of my primary school/high school friends is in Hollywod! Another high school collegue has managed to reach Professional Soccer :S hm... I better do something! hahaha let's eat! wooo! wooo! Argh... sufferring from stomach aches and stuff all day... must have been some hidden implcated onions and garlic inside the mexican food I had last night ><" At least I trid my best to avoid it as much as possible, and at least I was nowhere near meat! EIIWW!!! :P

Well, yesterday was my friend's Lawrence's birthday dinner. His birthday's not until Tuesday so there's no need to say happy birthday yet haha. We went to this Mexican Restaurant called "Borderland Mexican" restaurant. When we arrived there he said that he had apparently booked the wrong restaurant hahaha but ooh well.

But that wasn't all that happened yesterday... Anson came over around 3:30PM to go shopping for a present, so we went to Macquarie centre, but we weren't able to find what we were looking for. We were actually looking for that electric shock game haha

So then we decided to go to Jaycar around Crows Nest to see if we can get it. But then on the way, apparently the Pacific High way entraces had been blocked off from Epping road and we nearly ended up crashing 3 times and got lost 2 times hahaha

So we stuffed that idea and he just came over to my house to play some games and we headed off to dinner.

It was funny, all my high school group was there along with a bunch of Uni people. It was like a high school reunion haha. Then afterwards some friends came over to play some Poker... I lost many many rounds... miserably... I suck at bluffing hahaha, but then it's a good thing :P

Ahh well... oh yeh... sorry if you were bored Jess ({) =(

Today I kindly volunteered to be Vivien's first live specimen... well... for today anyways haha... for those wondering, I mean eye test!
I sat there trying to stay away for about 2 hours as Vivien had to keep prying my eyes open to test my eyes haha. Thanks for the free eye examination! :D It was probably the best one I've done hahaha

doot doot doot
la la la

that's all!

check this out!

2006-08-02T02:09:00.000+10:00

Omg... I don't believe it's real ><"

http://machomedia.blogspot.com/2006/07/baby-breakdancer.html

It begins...

2006-07-23T23:19:00.000+10:00

NooooOoooOoOoooo... this has to be my most unprepared start to a Uni semester... I still feel like I'm TOTALLY in holiday mode... RAAAH!!... anyways... sleep time...

Good luck to all those this semester!! ><""

the beep?!?!

2006-07-15T14:07:00.000+10:00

**Starts rant**

What the hell is wrong with some people? How can they be so bloody arrogant and up themselves? How can they be so intolerable but yet I still persist? gosh...

You suck!

**End rant**

sigh people are bad...

2006-07-10T18:42:00.000+10:00

One of the biggest problems in society today is that people don't care. It's a "who cares", "none of your business" generation evolving...

I'm not talking about the little things in life nor am I talking about the issue of privacy, so don't farking bring that up.

Everybody seems to be so bloody self conscious of themselves they seem to forget their effect on society.

No one seems to take anyone else seriously anymore and respect for each other seems to have flown out of the window completely sometimes...

**sigh**... maybe I'm just picking up crap from work...

what happened!?

2006-07-03T15:35:00.000+10:00

OMG... What has been happening in this year's FIFA world cup?! Trust England, Brazil and Australia to lose omg...! ><""

The winners of this year's cup seems to be based on the decisions of the referee and not on the skills of the players... this is truly sad... ahh well...

Anyways... yay holidays... freedom! :D... mmm my body hurts... forgot to stretch after the game yesterday ><"

yay...

2006-06-30T04:04:00.000+10:00

Yay! Exams have finally finished... I hope I managed to pass all my subjects because failing would put me back another year ><""

I have to admit though, I didn't study to my full potential and was often distracted... really have to learn how to get over procrastination ><"

Ahh well... one month or so of holidays... so many things to do... but i'm too lazy to type them out so yeh... haha =P

Hmm... meh... some ppl are already on holidays :\

They're out! ><"

2006-06-27T02:58:00.000+10:00

NOOOOOoooo....!!! THAT WAS THE GAYEST ENDING EVER!!!!!!!!!

omg... that ref is SOOO not leaving the stadium...

Check these out

2006-06-26T21:29:00.000+10:00

Just a few interesting things :)

try them!

the image thing stuffed my eyes ><"

now I'm coloured blind!!

http://www.spikedhumor.com/articles/36999/Optical_Illusion_Causes_Hallucination.html

http://www.toledo-bend.com/colorblind/Ishihara.html

Oh and shoutout to Jess again :) Happy B'day!

Happy birthday...

2006-06-25T22:15:00.000+10:00

Yeh, shoutout to Jess.

Happy Birthday la...~!

bwahaha

2006-06-24T16:13:00.000+10:00

Look what I found :P

Just a random run across I found online... A few "types" of gfs

Ms. Nice Guy
"Tickets to the boxing match? Oh Darling, you shouldn't have"
Also known as: What a gal, precious, one of the boys, my main
squeeze, doormat
Advantages: Cheerful, agreeable, kindly
Disadvantages: May wise up someday

Old Yeller
"You spineless good-for-nothing no talent sob! Can't you see you're making
me miserable??"
Also known as: She-Devil, Sourpuss, the Nag, My Old Lady, Warthog from Hell
Advantages: Pays attention to you
Disadvantages: Screeches, throws frying pans

Sickly
"Oh, my head. My head. My feet. My cramps. My cellulite"
Also known as: Whiner, Mewler, Glumpy
Advantages: Predictable
Disadvantages: Contagious

The Bosser
"Stand up straight. Put on a different tie. Get a haircut. Change your job. Make some money. Don't give me that look."
Also known as: Whipcracker, The Sarge, Ms. Know-it-all, Ball and Chain, yes... Mom
Advantages: Often right
Disadvantages: Often right, but so what?

Ms. Vaguely Dissatisfied
"I just can't decide. Should I switch my career, goals, home, and hair color?"
Also known as: The Fretter, Worrywart, Typical, Aw c'mon Honey
Advantages: Easily soothed
Disadvantages: Even more easily perturbed

Wild Woman out of Control
"I've got an idea. Lez get drunk an' make love on a front lawn. I done it before. S'fun."
Also known as: Fast girl, freewheeler, good time charleena, passed out
Advantages: More fun than a barrel of monkeys
Disadvantages: Unreliable; drives off cliffs

Huffy
"I see nothing humorous in those silly cartoons you keep snickering at"
Also known as: No fun, humorless prig, Cold fish, Chilly proposition,iceberg, Snarly
Advantages: Your friends will feel sorry for you
Disadvantages: You will have no friends

Woman from Mars
"I believe this interpretive dance will explain how I feel about our relationship"
Also known as: The Babbler, Spooky Girl, Screwball, Loony, Bad News, Artistic
Advantages: Entertaining, unfathomable
Disadvantages: Will read her poetry aloud

Ms. Dreamgirl
"I am utterly content with you just the way you are, my handsome genius of a boyfriend. I think we must make love like crazed weasels now"
Also known as: Ms. Right, Goddess, Knockout, Perfection, Gorgeous
Advantages: Funny, intelligent uninhibited
Disadvantages: Will have nothing to do with you

Have I missed any types?

Study break!

2006-06-15T00:57:00.000+10:00

Update:
This just in from Jess!
hahahaha omg... it's goood! Even better than that Sarah Michelle Gellah one hehe

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Muahahaha and the effect goes on... STOLEN!! :P

Alrite... Just studied a few things and currently taking a small break... well it's becomming big... I have to get more strict or else I'll never finish studying...

I have the Joline Concert CD playing in my hifi atm... I think it's getting realy stuck in my head ><"

THE FOLLOWING IS A BIG FAT EDIT THANKS TO BLOG BEING GAY AND ERASING MY ORIGINAL POSTING:
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You are...
[] tall
[x] in between - Yes I would like to say so... but then some reckon I'm short..
[] short

[] blonde
[] redheaded
[] brunette
[x] black-haired

[] blue-eyed
[x] brown-eyed
[] green-eyed
[] hazel eyed
[] gold eyed
[] grey eyed
[x] with glasses
[] with contacts

[] with braces - HAD braces...
[x] with freckles
[] with piercings
[] with a tattoo

[] and have long hair
[x] and have short hair - it's more like no hair...
[] and have mid-length hair

Your favorite color(s) are?
[x] red
[] pink
[x] yellow
[x] black - for certain things...
[] green
[x] blue
[] gold - This is so PIMP
[] white
[] silver - This is so RICE
[] purple
[x] brown
[] orange
[] indigo
[] grey

Some things you've done/played include...
[x] soccer
[x] cheerleading – trid and failed miserably...
[x] dancing
[x] lacrosse
[x] field hockey
[x] hockey – watch the nads... plz...
[x] football
[x] softball
[x] wrestling
[x] gymnastics
[x] track/cross country
[x] basketball
[x] baseball
[x] golf
[x] chess
[] playing in the mud
[x] playing music
[x] hiking
[x] kayaking
[x] camping
[x] horseback riding
[] marching band
[x] karate - some other form of self defence...

You are sometimes...
[x] annoying - yeh... quite often actually...
[x] talkative - yep... I can be...
[x] shy – yep... can be too
[x] sweet – hm... depends to who laAaAaaAaa... :P
[x] funny – haha I'm funny :D
[X] mysterious – YES DEFINITELY! note the capital X! HAHA *points at Jess*
[x] serious - :| yeh when I get all philosophical...
[x] bubbly - err... I suppose?
[x] spazzy – u mean spastic? yes...
[x] paranoid - oh of course... everything's a conspiracy... :[x] fun-loving - umm...umm...
[x] laid back – yeh I'm lazy...
[x] strict
[x] hyper
[x] nervous
[x] weird – Sif not!

The music you like is?
[] rap
[x] rock – when im under stress
[x] pop
[] country
[] hip hop
[x] r&b
[] slow jams
[] Christian
[x] classical
[x] techno - a very small amount... makes me happy :) **siezure bots**
[x] oldies
[x] the 80s
[] punk
[] metal
[] reggae
[] Goth - wot's wrong with u ppl?!?!?! >:(
[] Latin
[] 90's Grunge
[x] musicals
[] drum and bass
[] IDM
[] goa.
[] house

The pets you have/had?
[] cat..
[] dog
[x] lizard - I caught one remember? :P
[] snake
[] ferret
[x] spider – Oh I caught this too haha :D
[] rabbit
[] fish – the gold fish we got a while ago started to die… I think the koi ate one
[] bird
[] hamster
[] little brother – um... sibbling type or...
[x] TURTLE
[x] MICE
[x] COCROACH - HAHAHA YES... I caught this too... Coz I'm not a MURDERER!! ><"

You're mostly labeled as?
[] goth
[] emo
[] prep
[] punk
[x] hippie - LOL for my beliefs...
[] nerd – sometimes I wish so...
[] ditzy
[x] hyper
[x] happy
[] everything - wot the hell is everything?!
[x] I hate labels – WHEN THEY KEEP TICKLING UR NECK! I rip them all off! muahaha
[] I have no idea on anything else
[] bitch
[x] GEEK! - As much as you might deny...Jess... I AM :)

You eat?
[] dessert every night
[x] no meat – YEEH!! Vego's for the world!
[] diet stuff
[x] healthy
[x] junk foods
[x] a lot of carbs - I'm friggen AzN, I eat RICE EVERYNIGHT NEARLY!!
[x] ice cream
[] lots of meat - I've retired from this department
[x] salad
[] seafood - far out people... SEAFOOD IS MEAT, BLOODY ALL TYPES OF FLESH IS MEAT!! GET WITH IT U MORONS!! [x] exotic dishes - yep... the stuff I cook :D

A typical friday night...
[] mall with your friends
[] partying
[] doing my homework - haha this is like a never since forever... :P
[] watching movies
[] going to the club
[x] staying home - yes I'm a home boy...
[] playing videogames - hm... no time recently...
[] babysitting and getting $$
[x] hanging out w/ my friends - occasionally
[] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend - bleh... *dies*
[] working while your friends are out having fun

Currently you are...
[] in a relationship
[] single and loving it
[x] crushing – Oh always...
[x] single
[] just broke up
[x] considering work in a nunnery
[] married to the one person who is very special and dear to you heart, and hope nothing ever changes it – hm... faith… waiting...

Online, you use:
[x] lol
[x] sup
[x] rofl
[x] lmao
[] stfu
[] ty
[x] j/k
[] <3
[x] ttyl
[] g2g
[x] XD
[x] ^^
[] T_T
[x] x_x
[] ^_^
[x] O.o
[] TOT
[] nyaaah - WTF?!?!
"I use… [x] ><”” [x] -_- [x] raaah! [x] argh [x] hehe [x] haha – HOW COME THESE DIDN’T GET MENTIONED?" - quote Jess~

yes they won!

2006-06-13T12:07:00.000+10:00

Yes yes we know they won, good on ya aussies... kinda aggressive but hm... anyways...

Finally I can settle down and study my arse off... well I hope I can anyways since I've cleaned up my table... take a look! :D Basically I need like a lot of SPACE so that I can study ><" Before and after pics! Before:

and After!:

extremes...

2006-06-12T03:25:00.000+10:00

Far out... I hate it when I get too happy with a group of friends... I can feel my self losing control... I end up talking too much and doing too much... argh!! ><"

It feels so uncomfortable to be out of proper control...

Lack of...

2006-06-09T01:13:00.000+10:00

*sigh*... spent basically the whole of last night building my plane in CATIA... well not MY plane but a replica... basically just had to look at pictures of it online or something and then reproduce it in this 3D cad drawing program... check it out!

What do you think??

I know it's missing a LOT of detail but still... you have no idea how hard it is trying to make it and how much time it took!!! ><""

Anyways... didn't sleep again last night doing this so yeh, I'm really tired...

Goodnight world~

Misunderstandings..

2006-06-07T05:40:00.000+10:00

First I'd like to apologise to someone, even though it might not mean anything to you, for making you feel so sad and all. Sorry for making you feel used and everything.

I guess I care too much or I care in the wrong way... When is it that there are things you may ask and there are things that you shouldn't?

There seems to be so many things in my life that I'm DYING for an answer to but everytime I get close it just seems that I'm repelled from them. Is it so made that I am NEVER to know these answers? Why am I not allowed to find out answers to things that involve me?

Oh there are so many answers to questions that I want to ask. I hate feeling incomplete and having big fat gaping voids in my life. Because these things will forever haunt me and they will always be there.

Things like... Why did my father have to leave? Why did I have to get blammed for certain things? Why am I prevented from knowing things that involve me? Why do I have to keep getting misunderstood and why do I keep misunderstanding others as well? There are so many more questions...

Why is it that I'm always trying to care about everything and too much? Why am I trying to care for things out of my control for? I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE it when people say "WHO CARES"... I guess I've grown up thinking that the world's a selfish place and everyone just cares about their own matters. I admit I'm selfish at times and a lot of the times I don't even realise it.

But I'm sick of seeing everyone only caring for their own matters. I'm sick of seeing the world not caring about everything around them. Why am I always trying to totally open myself to others. Why can't everyone else do the same? Why does everyone seem to be SOOO protective of themselves? Why can't everyone accept everyone? The world would be such a better place...

Am I just stupid or too innocent? I really hate myself sometimes... I guess I care too much about everything, even the things I'm not in control of. Maybe I should turn into one of those "Who cares" people and live in my world of Me, Myself and I.

I guess I should be learning to let go of these questions. But 我唔甘心. 我好唔甘心.

I really hate having to keep falling into pits because I didn't know that they were there. I hate asking people the wrong questions when I didn't know what has happened.

What a sad event it has been... and to add to my car accident today...

Wow, I guess the 6/6/06 was really a bad date...

sleepless me..

2006-06-04T07:54:00.000+10:00

So now has come the morning.. And I wake.. And I'm lacking sleep again..
"self taking..." as chinese put it.. "zhi gi na lai"..

Anyways.. off to airport..

la la

2006-06-04T04:47:00.000+10:00

still not sleeping.. wasting time... *sigh*

do i worry too much?

Going back..

2006-06-04T03:04:00.000+10:00

I'm sure I'm not the only one.. maybe it's one of those mid.. err.. not mid life.. more like post teen life crisis or post teen life effects of introducing the internet..

It has basically become pretty much like a... socialising world for me.. sad to admit but very true.. and I'm pretty sure i'm not the only one!

I mean.. from the very first time I decided to leave my comptuer on and online overnight.. I was doomed..

I still remember before I joined the internet and I could join this dial-up plan for unlimited hrs and unlimited downloads for $30/month.. that was pretty cheap back then! And I use to tell mum.. "nah.. I won't be stuck on the PC, I'll only use it for like 2-3 hrs max a day.."... oohh gee wiiz.. now what?!?! Bloody get home and sit at the box til I go to sleep.. sometimes not even achieving any hw being done..

I really think if I get over this bad habbit then I can achieve SOO SOO much more.. maybe even develop a real life..

hm.. I remember going overseas and not being able to get online and "connecting" with my fellow friends.. that feeling was good.. but then when I didn't have the computer box to face.. there was always the conventional alternative.. the TV Box..

Life seems to revolve around a Box concept.. your life is like a box.. you're governed by certain rules in this world and people are always trying to find a way out of this box..

Well for now, I shouldn't be worrying about the whole life box.. but more about breaking out of my own little box instead.. maybe I can start by turning the computer off over night? I don't think that it's uni that has made me lose my sleeping hours.. but instead.. I reckon it's probably the after effect from all this radiation.. hm..

But then.. once the moment comes to turning it off, you're always thinking.. "NOOO I've got downloads que'ed up!!".. so what then?!?!

Man.. having a computer is alrite.. but without the net.. it's like a car without fuel.. it's like a drug I swear.. the more you don't have it.. the more you'll crave til you finally get your dose.. but then you'll get sick of it..

One day.. or maybe even now.. people's lives are going to rely on computers.. sometimes it might make things better.. at times.. it just might make things worse..

2006-06-04T00:53:00.000+10:00

What?

Why is it that when you know someone new, you're full nice with them and all, but then afterwards, all the respect and gratitude just seems to go away?

Friends of more than 10 years just don't even end up asking how each are anymore. They're don't even know what goes on in each other's lives and they usually change so much that it surprises you when you meet them again. I guess everyone has their own life and privacy, but that's not the point, it's not about privacy, it's about staying in touch.. not staying in touch meaning not talking to someone for a number of months and then talk again..

But anyways.. personal opinions, personal views yeh? So I guess nothing I say has any impact on some people what so ever..

Anyways, I just really hate voids.. especially voids that make things seem so unfair because it affected you in such a big way but then there's no explanation.. I'm sure it's happened to other people before, it's like when a friend just TOTALLY goes cold on you and there's basically no explanation =\ What is up with these people's arses? Did they ever consider you as a real friend? hmm

I really do miss some old "friends".. I wonder if they feel the same or maybe they're too busy with their own lives~

I think I need more friends...

Anyways.. Humans.. what are we?

rah!

2006-06-02T20:04:00.000+10:00

nooo end of sem exams are comming up soon.. so good luck to all those who have exams and assessments.. hm..

Uni has been pretty hectic recently.. in the last few days and nights I've been staying up doing this Aero design subject.. there was sooo much to do.. basically you do somthing, if it doesn't work then you gotta go back and do it from the start.. that took like sooo much of your time.. but ahh well doesn't matter, as long as it's over.. so basically stayed up for around 40 hrs with absolutely no sleep.. all I did was assignment, food, shower.. so now it's time to catch up..

man.. was today cold or what?! It's getting pretty cold recently.. I think it might have to do with the rain..

hmm there seems to be something wrong with my computer recently.. it keeps "dying" and stuff.. I dunno.. Can't wait til the break then I can clean my room and everything..

aaaanyways..
some people are so mean =\

crazy japs haha

2006-05-23T13:28:00.000+10:00

Haha a friend sent me this hahaha check it out!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wzMJ_RdgHg&search=silent%20library

Crunch time..

2006-05-17T15:43:00.000+10:00

yeh.. as topic says.. final assessments comming up so I'm going to be a bit busy.. and I probably won't update my blog for a while.. but anyways.. not that it matters since I have no readers anyways hahahaha..

now why am I typing stuff up for.. hm.. must be procrastination.. yes.. yes...

I'm slow..

2006-05-11T01:49:00.000+10:00

Hm.. yes I'm very slow.. it's only now that I'm catching up to the whole James Blunt thing.. it's like already.. or nearly totally blown over already anyways.. but anyways laa it's still nice :)

especially these following songs..

Goodbye My Lover
Wisemen
Fall at Your Feet
You're Beautiful

aanyways.. gosh i'm gonna start talking like him soon HAHAHAHA *shivers*

to rape or not to rape..

2006-05-08T17:26:00.000+10:00

Ok.. so the title sounds a little queer.. Guess what I was getting at is.. there's only 4 - 5 weeks or so remaining until Final End of Semester Exams!!!

So it's either I rape them, or they rape me.. gosh..

So yeh.. not a good time to procrastinate now! tsk tsk tsk *shakes head..*.. why am I blogging.. coz I'm procrastinatin!!! ><"""

><"

2006-05-04T23:36:00.000+10:00

So lost.. so alone.. ><"

Droopy saggy eyes~

2006-05-02T10:17:00.000+10:00

wee.. I'm.. tired..
well yes if you've guessed, I'm back.. from hk.. wow.. that's probably the shortest overseas trip I've ever been to! But hey it was well worth it!
For those who don't know, I basically went back to attend my cousin's wedding, and well yeh some of you may think "pfft.. it's just a wedding.." then you're so wrong.. it's all about the meaning behind it..

mm anyways.. I'm at uni atm.. dogging a quiz worth 15% since I didn't have enough time to study for it.. gonna go get a doc cert and try to get a few special considerations for it.. hope I can laaa ><""

anyways.. meh.. i'll type more later.. so.. tired... gonna sleep right here.. right now..

Tata~

2006-04-27T06:24:00.000+10:00

Ah well, the time has finally come.. time to fly to hk!!

This'll be my last post before I fly to HK.. don't know if i can post in hk or not but it doesn't really matter.. it's only a few days.. hmm

Anyways la, gonna miss a few ppl hahaha =P Time to turn off the comp and do some last minute checks before I leave the house~

until next time lu..

p.s. I've had like 3.5hrs of sleep in the last 38 hrs.. how come I don't feel drowsy??

Oh crap!

2006-04-26T06:10:00.000+10:00

Oh damn.. fully working on my Aero design assignment.. got fully into didn't even realise it's already 6:09AM and it's FULLY BRIGHT OUTSIDE! OMG OMG OMG.. I don't even feel tired!.. I'm like fully burning my body man.. not good not good.. anyways.. I'm going to force myself to bed now.. hope I can wake up.. got something IMPORTANT TO DO IN THE MORNING!! ><""

On a roll~!!

2006-04-25T04:22:00.001+10:00

Haha.. I just love it when I can finally get into a working pattern for say study or just basically doing things.. I love how I can just keep on going without being distracted.. but this is such a rare thing and it always seems to happen when it starts getting really late.. but then once it gets too late my brain just decides to shutdown and you can really feel that you cannot think and you just basically hit a wall at what you're doing.

Anyways.. Still haven't completed my Aero Design assignment but I've done pretty much 90% of it in terms of drafting, I just gotta format it up and everything tomorrow to make it look good and all.. It's gonna be due on the same day I have an Aero Mid Sem Exam!! ><"" And it's also due on the day that I'm going to be flying overseas! hahaha Jess noted that she watched the opening of Big Brother last night and it was kinda interesting to find out that there's apparently an ASIAN CHINESE GIRL in the house this time! And yeh.. it really is questionable the things people would do for money!! ><"" Was sitting downstairs before at the dinner table working and having Big Brother Uncut playing on the tv.. it kinda annoys me to see what lengths the entertainment industry will go to provide "entertainment".. I know this isn't like new or anything, but I thought I'd just like to bring it up anyways.. oh and like there's this chinese girl in it, I think her name is Ana or Amy or something like that.. can't remember.. but apparently she's being picked on.. *sigh*.. Asians were never meant to belong in something like this... Where are all the ethics gone in making a show like this? And to think of the people that actually SUPPORT IT!.. I don't support it, and no I'm not chasing it either.. I just had the tv on so that it wouldn't sound so quite.. Ahh well anyways.. it's like 4:30am now so I better get to sleep.. got more work to do tomorrow! =) p.s. Yeh, tomorrow's (25/4/06)'s Anzac Day btw.. so 1 minute silence if you can.. Considering the lives lost in order for us to have our peace today.. but then again if it was up to me.. was violence really neccesary? Would today's world be really different if it wasn't for the loss of these lives? Someone with a better history knowledge can answer that for me.. Hm.. I've noticed I've been blogging quite a bit these days :\ Maybe I'm getting into a habbit haha, but then again, I'm going to HK soon for a while so I'll prob lose the habbit HAHAHHAA.. ahh well.. yeh and just one more thing.. people might find loading up pages from overseas (including blogs) slow due to this stupid cable being CUT on the American side that links Aus with USA ><"""

OH YEH! and one more thing! JESS! HAHAHAHA GUESS WHO I SAW LAST TUESDAY NIGHT ON THE WAY TO YOUR PLACE?! OMG OMG OMG... JACK SPARROW!! NO SHIT!! HAHAHHAA tell you more next time hahaha been too busy to remember haha~ =P

haii..

2006-04-24T03:04:00.000+10:00

Ok.. been a pretty busy easter break..
finally finished my stupid gened journal.. it's crap.. i don't care.. i just want to get it over and done with so i can sleep!

anyways.. hm.. life is weird.. and it's interesting..
I always feel like i'm getting things thrown at me at the BEST times.. best not necessarily meaning it's a good thing in this context.. but I feel like it's just.. it's so.. I don't know.. i can't explain.. it's just a feeling..

It's like things happen and all these feelings and thoughts come into my head..
Guess I gotta learn to better control myself and all..

Most people are only sensitive to certain things when they're at their most extremes.. what I mean is, for example, you will only feel major failure if you're at the peak of your success, you will feel great sadness when you're at your happiest, you will feel great loss when you possess too much.. get ma drift? yeh..

So what do we do? We gotta learn to "stabalise".. never too much.. and never too little of something.. we need balance.. yes.. balance..

anyways.. hm yes.. things are happening as we speak.. what can I do? Go to sleep.. lie down.. I don't know, I'm not respecting time atm as it's nearly 4am already..

*slaps self hard..*

wAsTeD~!

2006-04-21T14:38:00.000+10:00

Adrian's b'day next week so my high school friends and a few others decided to throw him a party..
Basically we just went to Hinode jap restaurant in chatswood and WOW I HAD FOOD TO EAT! Vego food that is! hahaha.. mm omg it was NOICE...

anyways, then afterwards the boys decided to book out my house so about 12 came over and we had ice cream cake (ooh.. still in my freezer =) ) and then we just played some mar jong and played 5 player soccer on the PS2 hahaha.. typical guy activity..

A few friends got wasted from the little amounts of alchohol they had and it was pretty funny hahaha..

Around 1, half the people left and there was me and 4 others remaining.. so what did we do? We played soccer on tv... -_-"... anyways.. it was pretty fun, kept losing to the computer though hahaha, then around 4-5 people started getting wasted and falling asleep so we all decided to sleep around 5.. so we just left the tv on and lied on the couches and stuff downstairs.. the around 6:30 a few ppl woke up and left, then we went back to sleep.. then around 9:30, the rest left.. so I could finally sleep!

So yeh.. went back upstairs into my comfy bed and slept like a dog.. haha *Rah!*

hm.. woke up about an hr ago, had enough procrastination so I better get started on some study!!!

Got a mid-sem to study
A major assignment
A take home assignment
And a Quiz worth bloody 15% to study for coz the quiz is exactly on the day I get back from HK!! ><"" Guess I'll be studying in hk then yeh? haha

anyways.. DISPLINE!!!

sha la la la la

2006-04-20T01:11:00.000+10:00

So weee.. what have I been doing? Basically spent the whole day studying AERO3620.. basically one of my aerospace elective subjects that teaches up bout how aircrafts fly etc etc..

Now it's like 1:14am and I'm about to start my GenED Take Home Exam! Wow.. my first "Take home exam".. as some of you may know what they're like ;) HEHEHEHE But I'm pretty sure it's NOTHING compared to what you had laaa haha..

Anyways.. this subject is called Science and Religion and it's pretty much self explanatory.. there's a lot of online discussion as well and it's really interesting reading what others have to say and having the ability to share thoughts and ideas..

Anyways, better get started.. maybe I'll update later when i finish yeh? hmm.. blardy sleeping late all the time now, really need to make better use of my time.. stupid friends wants to book out my house tomorrow night to celebrate one of my friend's b'days so I basically lose a night for study.. and as some of you may know I'm going to HK soon so yeh.. omg omg .. okok gotta stop typing ><""

Copy n Paste~

2006-04-18T10:46:00.000+10:00

1.Copy and Paste in your blog
2. BOLD anything true
3. Leave plain anything untrue
4. anything else u wanna add it in

001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more tv than I used to. (It's what I do when I try to leave my computer haha)
003. I love olives.(YEH! Especially those Chinese style ones mixed with beans omg..)
004. I love sleeping.(I do I do.. spend... no wait.. wrong song.. yeh but I dun get enough of it ><")
005. I own lots of books. (Yep! But I haven't really read many of them hahaha, they're shelving weights)
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.(8) .. ok )
007. I love to play video games.(Which guy doesn?!?!?! HUH!?)
008. I’ve tried marijuana(mm grass...)
009. I’ve watched porn movies.(WEEEEEEEE....)
010. I have been in a threesome.(HELL NO)
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. ("from my perspective, no" - quote :P hahaha jkjk)
012. I believe honesty is the best policy.(I believe there are other policies..)
013. I have acne free skin (pimple free! wait.. NOO the volcanos are bursting!)
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton(The hell is he? haha)
015. I curse frequently.
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.(ho hum..)
017. I have a hobby.
018. I’ve been told I have a nice butt.(HAHAHHAA ;))
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. I've never broken anyone else's bones.(I've broken my own? OH SHIT.. I broke a friend's tooth.. but that's not really bone...)
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain.(Sometimes..)
024. I’m paranoid at times.(Yes very.. *sigh*)
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now.(OH HELL YES)
027. I love sushi.(give it to me baby.. ah huh ah huh.. la la la )
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.(lalalallalala LALALLALA LALlalala RAH!! :P)
029. I have fresh breath in the morning. (*breathes in..goes green* :S)
030. I have semi-long hair. (nah i'm gonna keep it short!)
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas(Not unless I dropped it last time I was there?)
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside Australia
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin.
037. I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D.(I could.. but it would be hard..)
038. I like the way I look.(hm.. sometimes :))
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
040. I know how to do cornrows.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings.(yeh..I'm gay.. ERR NO not REAL "GAY" ok??..)
043. I think prostitution should be legalized.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty. (SLAARRT BAAG!! BABY SQUIRTER!! hahaha)
046. I have a hidden talent.(Yes.. I'm Mysterious ;) )
047. I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.(I feel hyper now for some reason but I've just woken up for like 5 minutes :|)
048. I think that I’m popular.(hell no)
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex.(Yeh my dad! HAHAHA)
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.(Hey it's cool!)
053. I love to shop.(only when I have the money to do so!)
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.(I wish :P)
056. I’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I’m obsessed with my blog!(So obviously not... My drive to update depends on peer pressure..)
058. I don’t hate anyone.(I hope not..)
059. I’m a pretty good dancer.(I'm Mysterious... :) )
060. I don’t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington(wah? what happened?)
061. I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a mobile phone.(chiu! 2 phones ho lek meh?! :\)
063. I watch MTV on a weekly basis.(OH I USE TO! when I was in primary school haha, wake up on sunday mornings just sit there from 8 - 10am..)
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.(I don't need to drink to pass out)
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I’ve rejected someone before.(Erm.. I think I did..)
069. I currently have a crush on someone.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.(Well not give birth to them.. but yeh..mm babies.. :))
072. I have changed a diaper before.(Yeh I changed my OWN HAHAHHAHAHA)
073. I’ve had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I’m allergic to anything deadly.
076. I've been with more than one person in a relationship before. ("depends on how you see it.." that just sounds so wrong hahaha)
077. I Smoke/Used to smoke.
078. I've had fantasys about a significant other.(Mmm...Weee.... la la la...)
079. I've been in a fight with someone before.
080. I want to get married. (nah not right now.. Not good enough yet haha..)
081. I have annoying habits.(Yes.. yes..)
082. I have different personalities. (Err NO! I'm not Skitzso!!)
083. I live for myself.(I'm living by myself though?)
084. I always change my style of clothing.(Yeh.. I change so dramatically that no one ever recognises me at UNI HAHHAHAHA)
085. I sing in the shower.
086. I'm a very annoying person/I annoy others.(sometimes)
087. I hate being me.(Sometimes)
088. I want to be someone else.(sometimes but not in long term no)
089. I want to be famous. (somestimes)
090. I've stuck by my friends all the time when in need. (Do they need me or I need them??)
091. I'm a very dangerous person to be with.(I'm Mysterious....)
092. I'm a very trustworthy person.(I AM!! I AM!!...)
094. I'll take a bullet for my friends and family.(ouch)
095. I've fallen in love before.(Deeply..)
096. I've had my heart broken before.(mm.. ='( )
097. I want to be with someone right now.(In what context sin??)
098. I am liked for who i am.
099. I'm very talkative. (Yeh.. use to be.. and still got it inside of me..)
100. I'm only open to others close to me.(Sometimes I open up to people I want to get closer to??)

lalala

la la la

2006-04-12T20:44:00.000+10:00

bleh.. basically lost all inspiration to keep this blog going.. since no one reads, then what is the point of typing it anyways? hmm.. I don't even write journal/diary entries..

ooh well

life is been fairly normal recently, doing work here and there around uni.. today helped to promote this xbox 360 thing around the uni.. basically just walked around and handed made ppl sign up bla bla..

Hm.. also been working at a retail store at uni recently. I don't understand how people can just stuff their money into their pockets.. it's really really annoying when they give you some dollar notes and they're just like a piece of scrunched up paper.. like what the helL!?

Oh LIFE!

2006-03-30T01:20:00.000+11:00

I have no idea what I'm going to write.. don't even know why I'm writing.. well typing.. but anyways..

I HATE MY NOSE ALLERGIES!! HAY FEVER ALLERGIES!! THEY SUCK BUM BUM!!!! SO BAD.. OMG...

yes.. let it out.. HOOOOSAAAAA....

I feel weird recently.. kinda like I'm racing against time.. but I don't know what i'm racing AGAINST... nothing in particular I can think of.. maybe coz I haven't been getting enough sleep due to catching up homework, study, assignments and other important "tasks" recently..

Man I need a proper move on and a lil bit more determination in the things I do..

Aaaanannnyywaaayyss.. I'm lost... and I'm sick.. *sigh*...
EVERYONE'S BLOODY SICK!! ><""

To all my friends, GET WELL SOON!!

aiyoo~..

2006-03-29T00:02:00.000+11:00

It's as if I've taken the fat from you or something ><""

PLEASE fatten up and get wel l soon la~! ><

hello..

2006-03-20T09:22:00.000+11:00

Bleh.. got to uni early coz I caught a lift off Kei.. thnx dood :)
Today's gonna be my first day at work in the Mid-Campus stationary store (Zippys)
Hm.. wonder what it's gonna be like.. I'm sitting the comp. lab in the mech eng. bulding atm with Dixon coz he decided to jig class haha..
anyways.. bored..

Wonder if anyone still reads this blog..? hm..

bleh~

2006-03-17T18:33:00.000+11:00

meh.. 3rd week of uni's finished and I'm probably 3 weeks behind now.. what happened to tackling my procrastination!? RAH!!... gotta push harder..

anyways.. these days, driving to Uni has become pretty much a habbit and so is listening to the radio.. I can't help but have ENGLISH songs endlessly mashed into my head.. There was a period when I was totally against english music.. but I guess it's starting to grow on me again.. been noticing a few nice songs recently. Don't even know their names!!

Oh and GOSH! today whilst I was driving home I actually sang along with Kylie Minogue!??!?! ><"""" that's just so wrong.. RAAHH!!!

anyways.. nice songs and nice lyrics.. check~ I may be a bit slow.. but still.. hehe

Mariah Carey - We Belong Together
Backstreet Boys - I Still (I thought they were dead!?)
Madonna - Sorry
Lee Harding - Anything For You
The Veronicas - Everything I'm Not
Sugababes - Push The Button
Steven Tyler - Just Feel Better
meeh.. so many more that I don't know hahaha

this sucks! ><"

2006-03-12T16:28:00.000+11:00

Man.. don't we all just suffer from procrastination so badly?! argh!! ARGH!! I can't blame anything or anyone but myself ><"
When uni first started I was kinda hyped and basically kept up with speed.. Now.. into the 2nd week of uni.. i'm 2 weeks behind!?!? wot the.. anyways.. well..

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Woops that was majorly copyright and just wrong hahaha.. if u missed it too bad! Don't ask me what it was coz you aren't going to find out muahahhaha.. words of wisdom..

thnx Jess ;) hehehe

><""

hmm

2006-03-09T19:54:00.000+11:00

*sigh sigh sigh*.. what should I do.. what can I do..

anyways.. Uni's started for about 2 weeks now. I've finally doing my Aerospace subjects.. gosh they're just so interesting haha, and I'm actually serious.. wow.. now hope I can get really good marks this semester la..

anyways.. time to do some things..

Don't you just hate it when..

2006-02-23T00:47:00.000+11:00

ah beep beep bang boop pee wee loo!! POW! BANG! KA BANG!! POW!!! WAM!! ahh so violent =P

Misunderstandings suck, no more!! :)

does anyone read this anymore??

2006-01-26T03:39:00.000+11:00

Hm... can't sleep.. I just don't feel like sleeping these days I don't know why.. I'm like sleep deprived but I don't feel sleepy.. I sleep like 4-5 hrs average every 24hrs. I know.. it's hard to believe but I just do??

Anyways.. just wondering. does anyone still read my blog? Coz it's pretty pointless if I just keep posting things but then no one actually reads it haha yeh?

raah!

2006-01-23T03:20:00.000+11:00

Raah! dun feel like sleeping.. meh.. kinda feel as if the day wasn't completed.. hm.. anyways.. I'm bored..

Hahahaha commentators..

2006-01-19T21:24:00.000+11:00

Hahaha.. watching Tennis Hewitt vs Chela atm.. anyways.. so there's these 2 commentators right.. Name one A and the other B.. this was the convo just then hahaha..:

A: His arm's like an alligators..
B: Yes that's if you say so..
A: You know alligators? Short arms?
B: I've been down alligator alley a few times.. never saw any..
*slight pause about 3 seconds..*
A: Maybe you should get your eyes checked..
*another pause.. 5 seconds..*
A: It's usually the 2nd thing that goes..
*silence... waits for players to serve...*

HAHAHAHHA like wtf?!?!?!

bla bla bla

2006-01-17T14:26:00.000+11:00

bla bla bla :)
does anyone want to bla bla bla with me too? haha
let's all go bla bla bla! :D

help..

2006-01-08T23:23:00.000+11:00

So many things for me to do.. so many things to think about.. so lost.. so confused.. in need of direction.. in need of guidance.. God help me..

Things I want to do this holis!

2005-12-26T23:33:00.000+11:00

ok.. holidays, finally a break from Uni, so what are some things I'd like to do this holidays?

movies!:
-King Kong
-SAW2
-Chicken Little
-Dick and Jane
-Nadia
-Harry Potter
-Flight Plan
-Just like Heaven
gosh.. so many haha

Road trip!:
Well not really like a stay overnight roadtrip.. but more like I just want to drive a long distance.. dunno why hahaha

Earn more money!:
Yes! I want to earn more.. I want to find another job so I can eat up my time and make my holidays productive!

Other stuff, can't think of anything for now..

(x) Things..

2005-12-15T15:10:00.000+11:00

Hm.. stole this off Jess's blog.. :)

(x) smoked a cigarette (what about other things?)
(x) crashed a friend's car (mum's car?)
( ) stolen a car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) snuck out of your parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) skipped school
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a crush on one of your internet friends
(x) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
(x) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been skiing
(x) met someone in person from the internet
( ) been moshing at a concert
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(x) petted a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) ran a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(x) been in a car
(x) had braces
( ) eaten a whole tub of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight
(x) liked the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
( ) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to the flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didnt take a shower for a week.
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others would say
( ) gone streaking
( ) gone doorbell ditching
(x) played chicken
(x) pushed into a pool/hot tub with all your clothes on
( ) been told you're cute by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish then ate it
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
( ) cheated on a test
( ) have a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someones name
( ) French braided someones hair
( ) been kissed by someone you didn't like
( ) gone skinny dipping in a lake
(x) been threatened to be kicked out of your house
(x) been kicked out of your house
( ) been pushed into the snow w/ shorts & a tanktop on
( ) been kissed in school
( ) had superglue in your eye

Happy Birthday to myself~

2005-12-12T23:23:00.000+11:00

Yay.. Well not yet.. still a little early but anyways.. Here I celebrate to myself having being able to live to the age of 21.. atm.. I'm not happy, I'm not sad, I'm just feeling really grateful for the last 21 years of my life.. I wonder how many more to go? hmm..

Well.. shoutout to my mum for giving me life on Earth and carrying such a heavy burden.. I PROMISE I will repay you and fulfil my mandate to you.. And thankyou the Lord God for giving me so much..

Last but not least.. Happy B'day to all those who's birthdays are also on the 13th Dec, especially to those born without a family, a home and other things..

*virtual hugs to everyone..*

Past times?

2005-12-10T03:00:00.000+11:00

Hm.. isn't it funny how humans only beg for their lives during their deepest moment of need? like just before they die? And also like people only realise their wrong once the worst consequence is about to unfold? hmm.. strange enough, humans never seem to realise things until it is either too late or something.. anyways.. I'm sure everyone has experienced this before, I for one definitely have!

Lollipops~!!

2005-09-19T03:58:00.000+10:00

Do you guys like lollipops? Well.. I like lollipops =) I like them a lot! muahahaha!

post

2005-08-15T01:11:00.000+10:00

I've always had a feeling that I shouldn't post personal feelings and experiences as they may expose me, or make me vulnerable to people. So therefore, I really have nothing much to post, as I have too much to say, but no will to post it.

wow an update!!

2005-06-07T00:18:00.000+10:00

it's been so long since my last update.. I guess I've been lazy but i DID say that i wouldn't update this so much when i first started it la haha.. anyways.. well a lot has happened since the last update and not a lot has happened as well.. I'm not going to type up everyday's happening since the second after i posted my last update!.. i'm just too lazy haha, but anyways.. let's talk about today..

I was a little late getting to uni this morning, i had a lab starting at 11am and i got to central station to catch the bus at 10:40am.. the bus usually takes around 15 - 20mins to get to uni from central.. so i was hoping that I'd make it just on time.. but guess what, on the way to uni, the bus stopped at NEARLY EVERY SINGLE LIGHT!! can u believe that?! there were about 14 lights and ultimately caused a delay around 10 mins.. so i was late! ><" such bad luck.. but oh well.. it was kinda funny afterwards..

hmm after the lab i had a 2 hr break, but on mondays i'm usually a nigel at uni and i can't be bothered looking for anyone, so after buying some wedges with sour cream and sweet chilli sauce.. mmm *tummy grumbles*.. I went into the lecture theatre 1.5 hrs before it started.. once i went in, i turned off the lights, walked up to the back of the theatre, found myself a nice comfortable seat..and... slept =P~! when i woke up there were like 5 ppl in the theatre haha and they were looking at me weird and smiling.. i have no idea why.. maybe i was snoring? i dunno..
anyways.. apparently both classes ended early, like 15mins early and the lecturers just walked out.. usually the class claps but we didn't even clap for them haha..

when i got home i was planning to finish off the last 2 assessments for the semester.. due tonight at 9pm and tomorrow at 9am.. but then.. my luck from bad turned good, BOTH assignments got extensions!! MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.. but yeh, no uni tomorrow so i think i'll finish them tomorrow..

anyways, how's that for an update? until next time.. hehe..

Car servicing costs an arm and a leg...

2005-04-21T17:52:00.000+10:00

man... my mum brought the car to service this morning.. I got off uni this arvo and she picks me up and says "It costed $9xx today".... my jaw dropped... end of post..

Survival without sleep?

2005-04-15T09:39:00.000+10:00

Hey all.. haven't been updating coz i've been kinda busy recently.. but anyways..
Man... i was doing this uni assignment last night.. i thought that all i had to do was type up a few things and format it and that's it! but then.. i ended up working til 8:30am in the morning! so i got about 1 hr of sleep, woke up around 20 mins ago, stood in the shower for about 15mins just standing.. i think i actually fell asleep hahaha.. don't u have that feeling when u don't sleep and ur skin and hair gets all oily? and you just want to wash it off.. well.. that's what i did haha
so actually, in the last 24hrs i've slept for 1hr.. maybe less.. i reckon today i'm gonna be able to fall asleep "at will"...

decisions..decisions..

2005-04-05T21:29:00.000+10:00

I've been watching this tvbj series lately.. pretty good, involves some questions that could be considered in ur lives...
lemmi ask.. if you were a guy, and u got your ex gf pregnant before you broke up.. then years later when you're about to marry your current gf, your ex comes back and says to you.. "this is your son"... what would be your reaction?
damn.. that would so suck... teaches people to use condoms eh? or maybe.. even no "bed time exercise" before marriage!

update..

2005-04-04T23:38:00.000+10:00

So it's been a while since i've updated. Why? maybe coz i'm just too lazy to update it, yeh i think that's why.
Well anyways, nothing much to say to be honest, but for some reason, feeling a little "empty" today.. don't even know why, i think it's just one of those ups and downs you get from time to time.. anyways

signing out~
ciao

sleepless winter..

2005-03-31T05:05:00.000+10:00

hey what the.. u might say.. Look at the time of this posting!!.. I mean why would someone wake up at this time for during a uni break? I wouldn't know either..
I've been a little sleepless lately, I wake up at the most ridiculous times. Sometimes i wake up early, sometimes i wake up heaps late, soon i probably won't even be able to wake up at all! Probably something's happening to me that i don't know about, maybe i'm thinking too much when i sleep, who knows? anyways.. i'm going to go back to sleep now.. gonna try studying whole day at uni today.
wahoo out~

btw, go checkthis out, i printed it out tonight. i didn't make a HUGE poster coz i was trying to save paper/ink: http://members.optushome.com.au/wah_hoo/poster2

PS. can some of my blog/xanga friends PLEASE learn the meaning of "User Friendly" and format ur text colour and text size in accordance with whatever background you are using so that people can actually READ what you have to say without having to copy/pasting ur words into a word document and reformatting it themselves? I mean far out.. it's not only hard to read with my half opened squinching asian eyes at 5am in the morning but it's hard to read at anytime! if you got something to say and you want people to read it, PLEASE.. think of others...

I'm feeling weird...

2005-03-29T02:30:00.000+10:00

Ok.. it's currently 2:34 am and i don't really feel tired.. infact.. i feel awake.. and what am i going to do? I'm going to go get my ps2 and connect it to the tv in my room and play gt4..

My 1st Blog.. (consider it 2nd...)

2005-03-28T12:39:00.000+10:00

OMG I'm a LITTLE frustrated atm because i was attempting to type up my first blog entry and SOMEHOW it ended up deleting like 800 words that i previously typed.. SO i shall now retype a SUMMARISED version of what i WAS planning to type! FFFFF*!&%*(_*%& @*%U@anyways la.. I joined up with blog coz i've noticed SOOO many of my friends making it and i started to feel left out.. but the catalyst in making me join was my inability to post comments on a friend's blog who didn't allow anonymous postings.. anyways la.. i'm still feeling annoyed so i'm not going to type much for this 1st blog.. sorry ppls~.. maybe i'll update and add more stuff later in the future if i have time.. but yeh.. ARGH!! I'M PISSED!!!!!! ><"!~

anyways.. take a look at this, i got really bored today!
http://members.optushome.com.au/wah_hoo/test.jpg